Biggest 'mom-guilt' moments so far:
- Dang....forgot my prenatal vitamins again and now clearly my baby will be stupid. Why can't I just remember to take a vitamin? This baby is counting on me and I can't even remember to take my vitamins everyday....I can't do this!!
- I ate a hot dog.....therefore I will get listeriosis and cause great harm to my baby (this actually brought me to hysterical tears one day). Was eating a hot dog really worth the risk? I can't believe that I put eating a hot dog because I felt like one at higher priority than my baby's health! I am a horrible mother already!!
- I drink a cup of coffee a day....sometimes I also have a few cups of decaf which apparently also has some caffeine in it (who knew?). What if my need for caffeine results in my baby being preterm, or low birth weight and it will be all my fault!! I read that caffeine is ok in small amounts during pregnancy and I thought I was doing pretty well....but then I read in US Weekly that Jennifer Garner 'doesn't drink ANY caffeine but allows herself a special treat of a decaf latte or two per pregnancy'! PER pregnancy?? I can't even count how many decaf lattes I have had in this pregnancy and thought I was being so responsible because they weren't caffeinated lattes! Does this make me a horrible mother already too??
In my more rational moments I am able to see that I am doing the best I can and I am not going to be perfect. I will make mistakes and that's ok! Everyone has an opinion and I am open to advice from other moms who have been here before, but in the end I need to trust myself and find my own way in this exciting, confusing, frustrating and rewarding journey through motherhood. There is so much to be scared about or feel guilty about if you let those thoughts take over, and I am so lucky I have a husband to remind me in those weak moments that we can do this!